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Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: stars - callalily

AUGUST 11th 2006
7:20 pm
PSBA campus
my first live concert with CALLALILY


there we were standing in the rain when suddenly the amateur band finished playing. out of the blue some guys went out of the backstage, and there i knew it was callalily. my heart began beating insecently. the first person i saw was alden(lead guitars). then i fanally saw tatsi hooking up his fender guitar on the left side of the stage, i was so happy coz we were at the left side. i was looking out for kean, but he wasnt there... after a minuite, he stepped out of the backstage and i knew it would be a great night for me.

the fist song they did was pasan. then, yakap. then, kung kaya ko lang. then, insane. and lastly, stars. kean was sooo good. he do perform well... he's so astig! the band is really a certified rockband. the members are a certified rockstars. and for that moment i knew that il be in love with them forever. i saw fireworks in the sky! i saw a spark... it was ever so magical. i never thought id feel this way.

i went home with a smile in my heart. they gave me a different joy that night. their music really has heart in it. i can feel it. in every beat and every word i feel the emotion they want to express.


*the stars in the sky will never be the same 

Current Mood: silly
Current Music: stars - callalily

top reasons for my relationships break-ups:



1st relationship

     ^ we grew apart. we are living two different worlds and isnt working out. i had fun though.


2nd relationship

     ^ law of diminishing return. at first i was all over that person after sometime it was gone. nothing was left.


3rd relationship

     ^ we didnt end officially. but we knew it was over and done. something that happened so fast will end the same way. its one heck of an experience.


4th relationship

     ^ law of diminishing return. AGAIN. it was too much. 


that's all. hehe














saying i love you again, are you listening? open your eyes once again, are you crying?


if only you could hear me shout your name!
if only you could feel my love again!
the stars in the sky will never be the same!

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: stars - callalily

i h8 studies

i h8 books

i h8 teachers

i hate school life!





i am sooo stupid... i look stupid, i sound stupid, and mostly i am stupid....

thank god for MUSIC!(aleluia aleluia)





if there's one thing left, im glad its music!

i just hope it would get me somewhere...

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: a promise - chicosci

its amazing how my life at some point can relate to people whom i worship (i.e. ala paredes)


she wrote:


Remember what it felt like when you found out that your ex-boyfriend had found someone new? You were so certain you were making the right decision when you broke up with him. After all, it wasn't working out. You never really got along with each other. 
You were more bad than good for each other in the long run, and since the break-up, you've been happier and haven't looked back since. But the moment you see him with someone new, you remember none of this. All of it is clouded over by the dull, empty, bitter feeling of being replaced, supplanted. And suddenly, illogically, you want him back. Desperately. 

I get that feeling sometimes! It's easy to feel that way when you have nothing. Everyday, you hear about other people building towers (or worse, occupying old towers you built), while all you've managed to build in your new life is a little pile of sand. In a panic, you grab on to what little you have left, hoping it will save you. You cling to an old identity, jealousy hold on to your past, just so you don't feel like such a nothing.

But it's futile. It's like trying to reattach a loose tooth that's been dangling from your gum by one thread. The past doesn't work for you anymore. It's gotta go. You know it. There's no other way. There's that panic when you make the leap. A moment of pain, a sad goodbye. Dying breaths. Death. Transition. Newness. Initial fear of newness. Then, lightness.





very well said! she like took the words out of my mouth!haha
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i guess this is how i always feel about the past... though im really not the kind of person who dwells on the happiness being in a relation ship!

being in a relationship makes me sick, and even scares the hell out of me...

its like: everyday i spent on the person, i die a little... until there's no more left of me! and becoming a zombie...

so why do i keep entering into one? ...cause i wanted to find out if there's someone competent enough to handle me... and yet, there's still none...

im empty....but happy! cause when i feel empty, its easily filled up with different emotions and every emotion no matter how small is treasured...

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: butterfly carnival

so ngyon, namumulubi na ako sa kabibili ko ng mga cd ng mga gusto kong banda...

and i was thinking if its all worth it? 

...of course its worth every cent! because in buying those cds i am supporting the band and as well as helping the music industry before it dies. cause people are buying fucking pirated cds! so nasasayang ang efforts ng mga musikero... and to think ah, opm cds only costs 250-300 pesos nalang! ohwell...

i've made an important choice in my life... seven years from now i would be 25 yrs old, and i would probably be a lawyer...so i was assuming that i will save aound 300 thousand pesos.

and if i computed it all right, i will invest my money in producing a new band...


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FOR FUTURE RELATIONSHIPS


essential requisites of an ideal guy:

1. taller than me at least 5"7
2. buff or at least may form ung katawan
3. rockstar or at least mahilig sa rock


formal requisites of an ideal guy:
1. mas matanda sakin
2. ok financially

note to self: "hindi importante ang face value"

*a defect in any of the essential requisites shall render the relationship voidable or void ab initio.
*an irregularity in the formal requisites shall not affect the validity of the relationship.


wanted:
1. raimund marasigan
2. miggy chavez
3. mong alcaraz

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: nahuhulog - sandwich

sitting here in the library makes me so happy especially when im in the filipinana section!

there's a really cute guy here!heheü




***i really really love Raimund Marasigan of <s>andwich!! mahal na mahal ko siya.. at handa ko siyang pakasalan kahit 10 yrs pa ang gap namin!haha (sana lang eh!)